June brings early summer here in the south of England. Not that you'd know it from the recent weather though; chilly winds, frequent rain showers and a distinct lack of sunshine have meant it's been feeling much more like March and I've not yet put away the winter woollies. I'm not really complaining though, cooler temperatures are more conducive to knitting and to long country walks, and thanks to the unseasonable weather the countryside is still clothed in the bright, verdant green of spring. The early spring flowers have though given way to the summer ones; meadows of delicate grasses sprinkled with ox-eye daisies, verges of cow parsley and hedgerows of elderflowers, bramble flowers and dog roses, all so very pretty.
Back at home I've been slightly obsessed with knitting jeans for some reason, having switched my colour focus from greens to blues. This indigo dyed cotton yarn (Scheepjes Skies light) is perfect for knitted jeans and when it's washed the colour leaches out a little (though it's leaching during knitting too, as you can see from my hands) and you can give a little extra rubbing to the knees so they look a little worn in.
Since the start of the year I've been dreading the arrival of June. Over the last 18 years, whilst Toby has been at school and more recently at special needs college, we've built safe and comfortable routines that help him to manage the everyday things that everyone else does without a second thought. He's had somewhere to go that helps to fill his time with some meaningful activities, giving him experiences he wouldn't otherwise have had and providing us with much needed respite time in which to work, rest and recharge. Tomorrow is the very last day of 'full time education' for him and what comes next is as yet untested, unknown and uncertain, which is never a comfortable place to be when autism is a factor.
I began this blog in 2006, on the day before Toby started school aged four years old, and in some ways it would be fitting to finish writing here today on the day before he finishes college and we begin a new chapter in family life. It is something I've thought about, simply because life is about to get more complicated and free time will be more limited, but the truth is I'm not ready to go just yet. Putting together this blog encourages me to contemplate all that is positive in life, to go out and take pictures, to sit quietly and edit them and to write about my small and simple adventures and love of knitting. And when I have opened up about the struggles we sometimes face, you - my community of blog readers, have never failed to generously gift me words of kindness, compassion and wisdom, I would miss doing this and all of you terribly. So I'm staying for now, though service may be disrupted for a bit whilst we find our feet and forge new routines.
Well, I'm off to do a little quiet and calming knitting, I hope that the rest of June is kind to you, hopefully see you soon, J x
